Stink

2025-09-22, Monday

2025-09-23, Tuesday

  • Mosh

    I learned a little bit about the Mosh protocol. It was supposed to be a ssh replacement, but I can’t imagine it succeeded in that regard. It has no native Windows client. I tried setting it up via Cygwin, but Cygwin needed admin privileges that I don’t have.

  • Amanda Gorman style poem about autumn:

    Golden leaves whisper, a promise unbroken— not a fall, but a rising, a reckoning, a reckoning, where earth exhales its amber breath, and skies compose hymns in rust and fire.

    We gather, rooted in the turning, each step a stanza, each breeze a verse, not to mourn but to marvel— for autumn is our anthem of becoming, a courage stitched with sunset threads, calling us forward, hand in hand, into the light that waits beyond the fading.

  • Brow.sh

    I started using the brow.sh web browser. It’s a terminal browser. It doesn’t support multiple instances natively.

  • Zellij

    I’ve been trying out the terminal multiplexer Zellij. It’s newer than tmux, but not necessarily better. The learning curve isn’t as steep, but supposedly it isn’t as configurable.

  • Let’s write some stuff

    He began his day with a cup of coffee. No, not that cup of coffee. This cup of coffee. It’s black and sweet and cold because he set it on his bedside table yesterday and forgot about it, but it’s probably still fine.

    He groaned and stretched his bones. “Hnnnggghh”.

    The creaking, the popping of his ligaments made a symphony.

  • Ligaments

    I guess they are the connective tissue that connects bones to other bones. They also stabilize joints and organs.

2025-09-24, Wednesday

  • Windows 11

    I wanted a keyboard shortcut that switched between only visible windows instead of all open windows, but none exists by default. I’ll stick with good old Alt+Tab for now.

  • Emacs+AutoHotkey

    I learned that Emacs has an AutoHotkey mode. It’s rather old, and is for v1, but it does the trick.

    I tried using Perplexity to write an AutoHotkey script that would display key scan codes as I pressed keyboard keys. I switched to Visual Code, but I was unsuccessful.

  • Avy

    I added a new keybind to emacs that I think will be useful. Avy-goto-char allows me to jump to searchable characters in any open windows. Good stuff.

  • Pornography

    • Summarize this PDF

      Summary of “In This Industry, You’re No Longer Human: An Exploratory Study of Women’s Experiences in Pornography Production in Sweden”

      This scholarly article by Meghan Donevan investigates the lived experiences of women involved in pornography production in Sweden. The study is based on in-depth interviews with nine women and focuses on the conditions leading to entry, experiences of coercion and violence, and barriers to exiting the industry.

      Key Findings:

      • Antecedents to Entry: Women typically enter pornography production at a young age, often due to financial insecurity, poor mental health, and a history of exposure to sexualized violence, including childhood sexual abuse or intimate partner violence.
      • Industry Vulnerabilities: Once inside the industry, women experience manipulation and coercion from both pornographers and buyers, making it difficult to maintain personal boundaries. Vulnerable women are especially targeted for grooming and exploitation.
      • Harassment and Objectification: Women are routinely harassed by porn buyers—frequently receiving degrading requests and abuse online and offline. The more vulnerable the woman, the more difficult it is to resist demands. Experiences of prostitution and other commercial sexual exploitation are common.
      • Barriers to Exit: A major obstacle is the lasting presence of pornographic images online, causing ongoing distress, stigma, and fear of being identified. Many women feel trapped, believing they have little choice but to continue in the industry.
      • Impact on Well-being: Many participants reported persistent or worsening mental health issues, difficulties in forming trusting relationships, and significant social isolation.
      • Recommendations for Support: Access to vocational training, further education, and psychosocial support are identified as critical needs for women seeking to exit the industry. Supportive relationships and services are also vital for recovery and reintegration.
      • Overlap with Prostitution: The research indicates a clear overlap between pornography production and other forms of sexualized exploitation/prostitution, with women often moving between different venues based on demand and circumstances.
      • Policy Implications: The study calls for better documentation of harms and increased support services for women in pornography production, urging that such exploitation be recognized and treated similarly to other forms of sexual violence and trafficking. It also suggests that societal and legal responsibility should be shifted toward perpetrators and exploiters rather than victims.

      Overall, the article provides a detailed qualitative account of the systemic vulnerabilities, harms, and barriers faced by women in the pornography industry, with specific examples and statements from participants supporting the findings. It advocates for policy, social, and support-system changes to address and mitigate these harms.

    • Quotes with sources

      Put simply, a pornography addict may be triggered to watch pornography when exposed to conditioned cues in their environment, and may seek out new and different videos and images to maintain the same level of arousal.

      Citation: National Center on Sexual Exploitation. (n.d.). Pornography addiction: Seeking novelty until desensitized. Retrieved September 24, 2025, from https://endsexualexploitation.org/articles/pornography-addiction-seeking-novelty-until-desensitize

      In sum, pornography is a deeply damaging social influence that corrodes relationships, erodes the sensibilities and sexual freedom of consumers, and dehumanizes those used to make it.

      Citation: National Center on Sexual Exploitation. (n.d.). Pornography. Retrieved September 24, 2025, from https://endsexualexploitation.org/issues/pornography/

2025-09-29, Monday

  • Logitech G600

    I haven’t been able to find a way to program this mouse. I can’t install the GHub software. I can’t find any 3rd party software that will do it for me.

2025-10-27, Monday

  • Vulnerability

    • Avoidance of

      • Fear of emotional pain and rejection
      • Past trauma
      • Insecurity (fear of not being good enough)
      • Learned behavior
      • Desire to maintain control and avoid discomfort

  • Check in

    I’m going to be vulnerable. What the fuck does that mean? What does that look like?